Inspired Mode

I can say I have involved myself in a lot of relationships whether it was serious or just mainly fling.  Somehow being attached to another person was an easy thing for me.  I enjoyed its roller coaster ride and felt its ups and downs.  I have been through its saddest and happiest moments, through break-ups and falling in love again.

Well I just thought about writing this since I have read my friend's blog about falling in love again and another friend's quote that struck me "how do you get-up every after relationship? how do you do it so well?"  I might not have answered her question right because the fact is it's never easy going through break-ups especially when "Goodbye" is just the hardest word to say...

Letting go of someone special is heartbreaking.  We can't even let go of some things we owned, how much more someone special that we shared our dreams and fantasies with.  Along with the emotional turmoil you get into, the sleepless nights and the eyes that will just not stop from shedding tears, you feel the physical pain.  So my friend I tell you I have been there too, I have felt that pain and wish to never go through that again.

But here is the catch, it is always a matter of perception, let me quote this "when the heart is in pain the brain is at its best".  (Is that why most poets' poems about love is written when their heart is aching?  I can say when I am sad that is when my beautiful poems are written, well enough of that..)  What i am trying to point out is, there are a lot of things in life to be happy for, including heartbreak.  Because without pain you'll never realize the value of being happy, you'll never feel the joy of having someone that makes you smile. I don't know if everybody experienced this but when I am in such pain and go through my emotional moments of sleepless nights and drama (hahaha!) that is when my brain can think clear and keeps asking the "whys?" And though heart and brain seems to fight, brain seems to talk sense to the heart and tries to comfort it.

At those unpleasant times i would remember the good memories that we shared and reminiscing those makes me smile without regret.. I dived into the emotion and took the risk putting in mind that, love is full of uncertainty, nobody is sure neither I am sure but I took the plunge.. Having that said, and looking back to my past I can say they have their share of breaking me, teaching me and made me the best person I can be for me to love again...